I Don't Understand

A story of physical and sexual assault.

I Don’t Understand

I used to attend conventions as a female cosplayer. Something I greatly enjoyed & do to a limited degree. --- After reaching a close to doing photos & signatures, I headed back to my room. Ready to unwind & bathe. Just at the door, someone startles me. Standing some measure away from me. Seemingly messing with his own room door. He asked me to do a pose & sign for him. As a newbie then I didn't suspect anything of it. So I just went along with it & provided it for him. Satisfied, I returned to making entry into my own room. I make a stride past the door; I'm hit from behind. Knocking me down into a kneel. Suddenly I'm being restrained & before any proper attempt of struggle, a cloth is placed over my face. Abruptly blacking out, unable to do anything. I wake up, pain erupts all over my person. I find myself in horror of what I've just seen. My cosplay left ruined, essentially naked. Left as a heap of filth covered in bruising. All I can do is be left with tears & breakdown not knowing how something like this could have happened to me. That if I had just been more capable I'd have been ok. I msg the friends I made there that I can't show up & have to return home for personal reasons. After grimly cleaning & securing all my belongings I checked out & headed back home. I've never told anyone & while I don't harbor distress at anything besides the attacker themselves, I ended up not returning anyway due to covid times. Though I've been getting over it enough to return. Just this time with much more caution in mind. I just hope no other girls that love to attend just as I do have to go through such an experience. Thank you for reading Clayere Mothlorn. (Alias) If you wish to reach me by txt Kik - ClayereMothlorn

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